Teen pregnancy!

Everything's scaring me,
So badly,
So deeply,
I'm stuck in between
Without knowing what's happening within me.
I'm scared,
I'm hell scared to even tell,
Was it my mistake?
Am I to be blamed?
Or him too?
Both of us, I suppose.
My body's changing,
And i just finished my high school.
God! What will I do?
I'm scared of what my parents will think,
I'm scared of what I will do.
Becoming a mother just at 19 is insane,
I'm scared,
I'm worried,
It's our mistake,
What am I going to do?
What will society think?
Are they even going to blame him?
No! Never! They will blame me because I'm a girl.
No clue what to do.
Suicide is the only choice,
Otherwise,
Shame and wrong names to my family,
Was I brought up for this?
I better die,
I better die,
I deserve to die,
I don't want my family to feel ashamed.
I will hide the truth,
Smile a way too big,
Wait for a right time,
And jump off the cliff.
News reports will say,
"Teen killed herself due to depression",
At least that way,
No one will find the truth.
No one should find the truth.
No one should.
I'm scared.
I'm really scared to deal with all this.
~ Aarthi.N