Old and beautiful!

She was tall,
She had sparkling eyes of hope,
She walked with elegance,
And spoke with confidence.
She was definitely something different;
She stood away from the crowd;
All eyes were on her,
She looked like a princess without crown.
A maxi printed with flowers she wore for the first time,
And pink lipstick on her lips;
Wavy hair with clips on either side,
And a flat footwear,
She wore.
All simple yet beautiful.
I know her for years now,
But nothing has changed in her;
No change I find,
She's the same girl I met in my school,
The same friend with whom I shared all my secrets,
The same lover who was over protective of me,
It's been thirty years since we married,
And her taste hasn't changed a bit.
From lipstick colour to me,
Nothing has changed.
She is my same princess,
Who has become old now.
~ Aarthi.N

Alive yet lost..

The clock stuck nine,
And already I was high on my wine,
I almost felt like I'm falling,
But I didn't.
The glass in my hand was empty,
I needed one more glass,
I wanted to get rid of my thoughts;
Thoughts that troubled my mind and heart,
That killed me every minute.
I forced myself to stand still,
Balanced myself holding the table,
And took deep breaths,
Every time I breathed,
I felt alive yet lost.
That minute,
I saw him there,
In a bright red shirt with a nearly parted hair.
His eyes,
Magnetic enough to attract me,
I kept looking at him talking with the guests,
I laughed and smiled,
And realised it's just an infatuation and fell down.

The next morning,
I didn't remember what happened the fortnight, but I remember him.
His face,
The way he talked,
The way he smiled,
The way he looked at me when someone someone pointed by my side,
I just remember him and his presence.
I woke late and rushed to work,
And I stood there still,
When I saw him walking towards me.
He introduced himself,
And I stood there in shock,
Not believing myself.
His voice,
I heard but didn't listen keenly as I was still in shock.
He said he recognised me from the party last night,
Talked about himself,
What he does and everything,
And I did the same without even realising I'm already late for work.
Oh god! This man!
I thought I got infatuated,
But this is something more than that,
I felt happy after years,
after my first breakup.
I felt alive after long,
Only after meeting and talking with him.
Probably,
I'm falling in love all again!
~Aarthi.N
@writingsbyrt

Shadow

"Stop following me", I screamed.
I am scared,
I am worried,
I am crying inside to help me.
"Please don't", I shout,
But no one to rescue me.
I feel I'm invisible to them,
I don't exist is what they think.
Darkness frightens me,
It kills me,
I force myself to sleep,
Every night.
Every night,
I hope I don't get scared tomorrow,
But no,
The same thing happens the next day.
Have I gone mad?
Am I guilty of doing something?
I see this black figure walking along with me,
Every time, everywhere.
I'm scared of my own shadow!
Why you ask?
All I can answer is I don't know.
A sense of lost identity keeps following me,
And I'm trying to move on,
But alas! Nothing has changed!
~Aarthi.N

The moon.

Picture by @lauracope.art

The light from sky,
At this late hours of night,
Makes me think about the good old days I spent.
The moon,
White with a mix of yellow,
Hallow and round in the dark background,
Looks more like a painting.
A painting that makes one fall in love.
Yes! Fall in love!
That breeze that rushes past my face,
Gives a feel of happiness,
A sense of satisfaction,
And reminiscences of my love story.
Far yet near,
Like the moon,
We hear and feel each other close;
Far yet near,
We understand each other better,
Far yet near,
We choose to love until,
The moon decides to leave the earth,
And until its next birth.
~Aarthi.N

The waves...

The waves' rise in tide,
Touching my feet;
The wind's hustle,
Right on my face,
Her hair touching her face,
And she tries to move it with her right hand,
Oh god!
That broad bright smile,
That dimple on her cheeks,
That curve that makes my heart beat faster,
Will i ever miss that?
She looks at me,
I'm already looking at her,
God! She's beautiful!
She waves her hand in front of my face,
I just keep looking at her,
She shakes me,
And I'm back to life.
Back to my normal friend-zoned life.
My bad!

Just look at her,
Her eyes shine like  stars,
Her smile like the golden light,  like a beautiful portrait,
She's a painting by god.
I look around,
Only the waves touch my feet,
She's by my side,
Calling me to enjoy the beach.
She waves at me,
I wave back saying no.
She comes and pulls my hand,
And we play this way for sometime.
You win,
You dragged me and the waves hit us hard,
You hold my hand,
And nothing in this world is more beautiful I feel.
I look at you,
Screaming at the wave in joy,
How luckily I am is all in my mind.
I turn to your side,
You pull my hand and run to the shore,
I have no words to describe this more.
I'm happy!
So happy being next to you.
I can't express what my heart feels for you,
But "you" is all I wish to live with for my whole life.
~Aarthi.N

Picture by Pete Rumney

Teen pregnancy!

Everything's scaring me,
So badly,
So deeply,
I'm stuck in between
Without knowing what's happening within me.
I'm scared,
I'm hell scared to even tell,
Was it my mistake?
Am I to be blamed?
Or him too?
Both of us, I suppose.
My body's changing,
And i just finished my high school.
God! What will I do?
I'm scared of what my parents will think,
I'm scared of what I will do.
Becoming a mother just at 19 is insane,
I'm scared,
I'm worried,
It's our mistake,
What am I going to do?
What will society think?
Are they even going to blame him?
No! Never! They will blame me because I'm a girl.
No clue what to do.
Suicide is the only choice,
Otherwise,
Shame and wrong names to my family,
Was I brought up for this?
I better die,
I better die,
I deserve to die,
I don't want my family to feel ashamed.
I will hide the truth,
Smile a way too big,
Wait for a right time,
And jump off the cliff.
News reports will say,
"Teen killed herself due to depression",
At least that way,
No one will find the truth.
No one should find the truth.
No one should.
I'm scared.
I'm really scared to deal with all this.
~ Aarthi.N

Addicted

#OnStruggle #20wordOnly

Beauty of rain!

A spectacular evening,
With birds chirping
To get back to their nests;
With people rushing to get home from work,
For their hot filter coffee
To soothe their nerves;
Children playing and laughing in the park,
All these a sight of bliss,
Isn't it?
They were interrupted
By an unexpected visitor today,
A Few enjoyed and a few others  grumbled,
Was the visitor not welcomed?
The visitor was welcomed by the land,
The earth,
Who quenched her thirst,
Who loved the presence of rain.
The love story between them is simply magic,
A never ending story.
The rain,
Scared a few,
But was enjoyed a lot by many.
The pouring rain,
Made the surroundings fresh with the essence
Of love and beauty.
People say rain batters the earth?
But no,
Rain soothes the everyone's heart.
Who doesn't love rain?
Everyone one!
Except for a few,
Who are wrapped up in oneself!

~Aarthi.N

#ourpoetryjourneyjul18 Day 10

Prompt: Repercussion

Days are lengthy,
Every minute ticks slow,
Every second I count,
Is this what I expected?
Definitely no!
Then why?
I ask myself,
I ask my inner self.
I get a vague reply,
"Its because of you!
Because of your repercussion.
You don't agree?"
What did I do?
"You were being so good to everyone,
You were being that perfect painting everyone wishes to have,
You are abstract of the definition of "beauty",
You are the kindest."
All this made me fall into the trap?
I don't think so.
My life was different.
I was what I am now.
What makes the difference?
"There's a lot of difference.
You were killing yourself by being unreal all these days,
Ask yourself.
Sit in a corner and question yourself.
Is this what you wanted in your life?
Marrying a man,
Being caged inside this lonely house.
Is this what you really wanted?"
Definitely no!
I wanted to be independent,
Wanted to go to job,
Wanted to explore the world,
Wanted to experience everything,
But...
Right now I'm trapped in this cage.
An abusive husband,
Lonely house,
And serving the house like a slave,
I feel like a caged bird.
"Answer this. Why did you marry this man?"
Only because I thought I loved him,
And I thought I can fulfill my dreams,
But my repercussions became so wrong,
I'm dying.
I was wrong.
I want to fly out of this cage.
I want to get rid of this lonely torturous environment,
With no one to talk to,
And no one to explain too.
Save me!
" At least you realised your mistake now. Escape!
I'm sure you can!"
Battling with inner self,
I decided to give it a try.
Planning to escape to redeem myself from here,
For good.

~Aarthi.N

#ourpoetryjourneyjul18 Day#8

Prompt: Ambush

He is gone,
He won't be coming back,
I am not the same again,
What has changed?
Everything, I say.
I'm not the same,
Nothing around me is the same,
But what makes me feel alive?
Memories?
Parents and friends?
Just my inner confidence!

Ambush!
Today was different.
Ah! I feel light now!
Light as a feather inside.
But again,
Things come rushing back,
Past memories,
Heart breaks,
And what not!
I'm waiting for an ambush,
Something that will change me over time,
Make me live with the memories,
Will I be able to find something soon?

~Aarthi.N

#ourpoetryjourneyjul18 Day#6

Prompt : Abduction

#ourpoetryjourneyjul18
Prompt : Abduction
Day#6
This is my first try on such prompts. I hope it's not that bad and I will improve in future.

You'll be fine,
You'll be safe,
They told her.
She was confident,
She was elegant,
But what did the new place do to her?
Did she expect it?
Did her parents except or did her friends?
None!
As always,
She was travelling with her friend,
A guy who is more like her brother,
As society would always view it,
They spoke bad about her,
And that night,
What did this society do?
Literally nothing!
She was on her way back from work,
She was abducted,
She was tortured,
She was raped,
She was used like that of a paper,
Did she deserve all this?
No girl does,
The society says,
But what really happens?
Literally nothing again!
Shameful!
This girl,
Who was confident,
Who was bold to face anyone,
Did not have to courage to do the same after she was brought back home.
How will she be able to,
When people hold on to that topic,
Ever time they see her or her parents?
Shameful!
Those guys,
Where are they?
They will be happily roaming outside.
This is the case every time.
No woman is considered as a normal person,
Once she's abducted,
Once she's tortured,
Once she's raped.
Shameful!
When will we change?
When?
Shameful!
~Aarthi.N

#TalksWithHim Day#35

#Elfchen challenge

Madness Day#3

Tell me one thing,
Something that I will cherish always,
Something that will hold me right;
I don't know what made me fall for you.
I really cannot figure that out,
Those eyes or that perfect smile,
Or the character or a mixture of all.
The first time I saw you,
I was sure I won't fall in love,
But as days passed,
I wanted time to slow down,
Every time you were next to me,
I just hoped time to go slow,
Was I falling in love?
I really didn't know.
You talked a lot,
And I listened a lot,
Did listening to you sooth my heart?
Yes, I guess.
Was I falling in love?
Every time you crossed me,
My heart did beat a little faster,
I was scared to face you,
I really don't know why.
Was I in love?
The way you express yourself,
That smile when you look at me,
Makes my days bright,
Even if in real my day goes bad.
The first time i saw you crying,
I wanted to hold you in my arms and tell you everything's okay.
Was I in love?
This time when you are reading this,
You know it's for you.
A small tint of smile will appear on your face,
And I want just that.
That's enough for my lifetime.
I realised,
I'm in love,
With you.
I'm mad of your smile
And wish to see that always,
And be the reason for it lifelong.
Will you let me make you smile?
Am i in love?
Yes,I am!
~Aarthi.N

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